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oc voicetesting again
ALARIC THURN
Queen Blanche's attack dog-slash-bodyguard. Alaric was partially responsible for putting her on the throne in a bloody coup and now seeks to keep her safe. This would be easier if they weren't stuck in a timeloop replaying the same horrid events over and over and dying each time. Maybe eventually they'll get some character development, but that sure hasn't happened yet!
LARIMAR
Formerly a king of a flourishing nation, Larimar's rule was overthrown by his twin brother and if that wasn't bad enough, he was betrayed again by someone close to him after he slowly learned to trust once more. So yeah, he's doing great. Now out for revenge against two people, he will stop at nothing to make them pay for hurting him.
MALICE
The only valid vampire, Malice hates his kind, but wasted no time in mashing betray on his fellow rebels the second he had the opportunity for wealth and a more stable future. The woman who took him in (who might be his actual mom? weird) tried to turn him into a vampire noble. It didn't go well. So he ran away with his bestie, except it turns out his bestie was using him and had Malice beat up until he learned how to control his powers. Cool! He just managed to get free and is out for revenge.
REINA
Once a famous explorer and supposedly a skilled fighter, now she's working for her ex (who tried to kill her) and ultimately pretty unhappy with how her life's gone. Oh yeah, and due to some crazy bastards she's now going to be taken over by a god in an indeterminate amount of time and will cease existing... and her shitty ex is also dealing with the same thing. Thanks, world.
ZVEI, THE NECROMANCER
A deimori (demon) who is missing his memories, Zvei's become obsessed with finding a way to get them back, particularly because he's had realistic dreams of a place beyond the world... so naturally this escalated into him trying to end the world by obtaining god-like power by merging with the world tree. He's taken from directly after this point where he was forcibly ripped from said world tree and is near death but eh, it's fine. Did he learn anything from this? Hell no!
Oh look, it's another oc voicetesting post. Well, okay, I'm not voicetesting Zvei anymore but he's here because why the hell not. I wanna play him, you know how it goes. Anyway! Please help me voicetest some ocs, I definitely have some work to do with all of them!
Feel free to go as in-depth as you'd like with setup for where our characters are if you'd like to write a starter - we can play fast and loose with a generic jamjar or murdergame setting, or we can get into the worldbuilding if you want something more intense! You want to play in one of our characters' settings? Sure, we can do that! You want to steal from an actual rp? Why not? If you're not feeling like writing a starter, leave a comment with who you want and I'll give you one!
As always, murdergame settings are my beloved and I will gladly play in them, but we can do anything! Assumed cr is also totally fine if you want to skip over introductions and get into something else! I would prefer to avoid AUs right now since I'm voicetesting, but pretty much anything else goes! For inspiration, here are some memes: texting, stargazing, rain, random scenario, train to the afterlife.
The code used here is by lucavi!
Feel free to go as in-depth as you'd like with setup for where our characters are if you'd like to write a starter - we can play fast and loose with a generic jamjar or murdergame setting, or we can get into the worldbuilding if you want something more intense! You want to play in one of our characters' settings? Sure, we can do that! You want to steal from an actual rp? Why not? If you're not feeling like writing a starter, leave a comment with who you want and I'll give you one!
As always, murdergame settings are my beloved and I will gladly play in them, but we can do anything! Assumed cr is also totally fine if you want to skip over introductions and get into something else! I would prefer to avoid AUs right now since I'm voicetesting, but pretty much anything else goes! For inspiration, here are some memes: texting, stargazing, rain, random scenario, train to the afterlife.
The code used here is by lucavi!
slaps my own cheeks i am NOT letting these sit for a month--
That someone would look at her circumstances, and call them, rightfully, unfair? It takes everything in Amaya not to break. To break into the million pieces she wants to, that she desperately needs to, and for a brief moment she wonders if she's actually found someone who understands. And perhaps, that, is truly meant to be her hell.
Amaya's eyes widen, briefly, the words clearly shaking her. But at Reina's request--she composes herself, forcing her eyes shut as she recalls the rest.]
...That same group of people rose up to face me. Unlike my Father, however...they didn't come bearing their weapons blazing and ready to strike me down.
I fought against them, all of them at once, with every bit of the Dragon's power at my disposal. With every ounce of her might in my magic, I tried to eradicate them, but they spoke of...a better world. A better life, than what I had faced. They tempted me toward that life, no matter how adamantly I swore against it and them. They kept trying, reaching out to me, trying to tell me that I'm not alone. That there's better things in this world that I haven't seen yet. And that all I needed to do was take their hands, their support...all of it...
[Amaya exhales. It almost sounds like a laugh, though it's bitter. Deeply bitter.]
...They defeated the Dragon. At the end of it all, she stole away my happiness as recompense for defying her, and I passed out from the shock of all of my injuries. When I awoke...nobody was there. Not a single soul. They simply...up and left me there, healed and alive, but alone in the world.
Perhaps it was to punish me. To this day...none of them ever came back to tell me why.
[...And that, at the very least, seems to have been the hardest part of it all. Yet from the way Amaya's still shaking, it's...clear, perhaps, that she still hasn't let go of that. Maybe it's a regret--she's not sure.]
...Life somehow moved on. I met my...confidant--a demon who calls himself Aneirin. He assisted me in creating shelter, and only asked for my misery in exchange. It seemed to act as food for him. And, well. He found plenty of it with me.
Over time, the outcasts of other lands found their way into my territory. It...snowballed out of hand, when I fought to protect them--a small band of knights attempted to eradicate that area, and I scared them away for good and staked claim to the land for the people who lived alongside me.
It eventually became...almost like home. Or what I had heard in storybooks, at least--my people and I worked to keep each other safe as people came to us, as we worked to make the land something to be proud of and something to stand on it's own. It was...beautiful, I suppose.
[...Despite it all, she sounds a little...uncertain.]
no worries, i totally get it and mood lmao
As little as she likes the thought, the only conclusion Reina can come to is that yes, that's exactly what they would have done. Their focus was on protecting the Aeli, and Livizei had endangered their group and the world tree. They wouldn't have had time to help her settle in afterwards, even if they'd wanted to.]
...I'm so sorry.
[The apology is soft and for a moment, Reina's not even sure if she's apologizing to Amaya or to someone long gone, in a situation that didn't happen. She shakes her head and tries again.]
I'm sorry they left you like that. Maybe they didn't know what to say or... how to help or... Well, it doesn't really matter what their reasons were. The fact is that they left you alone when they'd offered you a hand, and that was unfair of them.
[But Amaya's life went on. It sounds like it was a pretty good life, all things considered, but the uncertainty isn't lost on Reina.]
It sounds like it was. It's nice to have some place like that, isn't it?
...But you seem a little... hesitant. Was it difficult to settle in there?
it's difficult as fuck but sometimes u gotta, appreciate u
I meant it quite literally, when I said that the Dragon stole my happiness. I...cannot feel joy, in any capacity. Nor happiness, nor elation, nor...any sort of positive emotion that it deems so.
[Amaya pauses a bit, and it's almost as if the cold, dead look in her eyes has a little more meaning. There's...sadness, in that eternal calm, and yet there's softness; she's trying so hard.]
All it leaves me with is a deep hollowness inside of my heart. Not that I deserve much in the way of happiness, after everything I tried to do...but it was difficult. When the positive things you wish you could feel, you had to imitate. To mimic. To try and fit in. I eventually gave up and still, people stayed.
It was...difficult, yes. But it felt more than undeserved, and every little annoyance I had, every bit of bitterness, it stuck with me. I was...worried I would lash out at them, if given time.
...In a sick, horrible way, I suppose that I'm thankful that I got the chance to die trying to redeem myself, than risking letting everything boil over again.
[...]
...It's kind of you to apologize, however, Reina. Please...even if I cannot feel it, I hope that you understand that this...all of it. I do appreciate it.
♥
That's...! That's horrid, how could it do that to you?
[There's a brief flare of anger and her shoulders rise like she's squaring off to fight, to do something...
And then the fight leaves her with a sigh. She can't do anything about it here and now. Neither can Amaya. She's just... stuck like this, still. Being unable to experience such positive emotions... hell, Reina can hardly imagine what it must be like, especially when she was trying to redeem herself, to do better, and to see the good in the world.
For all the difficult times Reina's experienced, especially lately, she holds onto those positive memories and feelings like a lifeline. Imagining having that yanked away from her is too cruel to truly consider.]
I'm so sorry about that too. You really have suffered so much...
[Maybe she didn't realize it was suffering at the time, but now that she's had a chance to live a more peaceful life - one without happiness, certainly - is she aware of it?]
I wish there was something I could do to help. I really do; I don't like seeing others suffering and your circumstances are just so... so frustrating. I wish I could help change them.
[But there's no point in that now. They're dead, after all. And who knows where this leads them - such sentiments are probably pointless.]