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[When Wesker didn't contact him a day ago he was worried, but worry has quickly turned to fear and Jaeger's never been good at dealing with fear. Repeated attempts to reach Wesker have failed, so Jaeger's taken it on himself to go looking for his boyfriend.

Thankfully Wesker cuts a distinctive figure and Jaeger's able to trace his location to the outskirts of the city. He's worried that he's going to find that something's happened to Wesker, that he'll be injured or dying, or maybe even already dead—

But that isn't the case, and when he finds Wesker the man looks perfectly fine.]

Albert!

[He'll approach immediately; the worry and concern is probably obvious just from that exclamation alone, but once he gets close he speaks up again.]

Are you okay? What are you doing out here?

[If Wesker will let him get close enough, he'll reach out to touch Wesker's arm, as he usually does.]

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[...Let him nuzzle you a bit, okay; the gesture is about as awkward as it always is, but it's there.]

I love you, you know.

[The nuzzling is always nice, even if it is a little awkward. He'll return it immediately, of course.]

I've really missed hearing that. I love you too, so much...

I know it was difficult, and it probably doesn't feel like it, but you really did do well for me.

[This feels nice, all right.]

...I'm glad you think so. It... it really does mean so much to me to hear that.

[Wesker's right though, it doesn't feel like he did anything.]

I didn't trust or care about anyone; I couldn't be close to them, because I couldn't afford to.

But I knew you wouldn't hurt me, and that I could talk to you about difficult things and you would listen to me. That...it was more than I had with anyone else. It was important.

I'm glad you were able to trust me at least somewhat. I wanted you to believe me, that I cared about you and wanted to help, but I don't think there was any way for me to convince you of that. But at least you knew you could talk to me; that really does mean a lot to me.

I wanted to talk to you. Perhaps because I understood that by the end I had no one; I really can't say. But I did want to talk to you, and I understood that you were important to me in this life.

I know you felt like nothing in this life was yours. It was... very difficult to know what to do or say. In a way you were right, but I didn't want you to continue to suffer. Even though our memories together are so important to me and I wanted you to know I'd be there for you even if you never regained them.

...I wouldn't blame you if you couldn't stay.

[He has to pause for a moment before he continues; this is difficult.]

I can guarantee that I wouldn't have taken it well or been able to understand at the time. But as I am now...I wouldn't blame you.

I'm glad, but I wouldn't have wanted to leave you. Not again. I would have, if I thought you were going to hurt me; I promised you, after all.

[He's not sure he could have left for any other reason. Maybe if things had gotten bad enough, he would have, but... Well, he doesn't know. He doesn't want to know.]

I know you felt guilty for leaving.

[He'll nuzzle up again for a brief moment.]

You were scared because I was saying things to you that you found threatening. You came back later, after talking for a while and trying to understand the situation a bit more thoroughly. I'm... It's good that you did what you could to protect yourself. That's exactly what I would have wanted you to do.

I don't think you were trying to frighten me by saying any of that, but it was terrifying anyway. I didn't know how to handle it, so I ran. I... I felt terrible about it. I tried to convince myself it was the right thing to do given what you'd asked of me, but I had a hard time believing it.

[He'll return that nuzzling though; it's a bit desperate.]

I'm pleased to hear that I was right in assuming that. But still... I wanted to be by your side. Even though you didn't remember me, I still wanted to do everything I could to help you. I couldn't agree with what you were saying and I tried to avoid talking about it, but... being with you was for my sake as well as yours. I didn't want to be alone.

[...]

I'm sorry that you were put into a position like that. And for leaving you alone.

Don't apologize, it's not your fault. You didn't remember. I'm not angry or upset or anything of the sort. I'm just happy you've remembered everything now.

[He's managed to relax his grip a bit, at least.]

I know it's not my fault.

[But still, it's...difficult, all right.]

As long as you know that.

[But he does understand, so he nuzzles against Wesker again.]

It's still difficult, ja? But things will be okay, I'm sure of it. I'll be here for you, no matter what.

[He just pulls Jaeger closer to him at that; he seems to be having difficulty getting words to come out, and after a while he returns that nuzzling a bit, though the gesture is tight and unnatural.

He doesn't understand why this is striking him now; maybe it's just finally sinking in.]

[Oh, that's... Jaeger shifts a little bit so he can move closer. He'll return the nuzzling gently and for a moment he's quiet as well. He's never been very good at staying silent though, so it's probably not a surprise when he speaks up again.]

I'm not going to leave your side, I'm right here. You've been through a lot; I'm sure this is difficult to take in. Is there anything else I can do for you right now?

[He's quiet at that, though eventually he does shake his head a bit in acknowledgement of the question. No.

Any other response seems a bit beyond him right now.]

It'll be okay, Albert. I know it's not right now, but it will be. I'm sure of it.

[The words are confident but not cocky, he's trying to be as soothing as he can right now. It's understandable that Wesker would be overwhelmed like this after everything he went through, and while Jaeger knows that Wesker hates it when he can't find words like this, it's sort of nice to see it again. It's just reaffirming what he already knows, that his Wesker is back.]

...I know it will be.

[The words are about as tight as the rest of him is, forced-out among increasingly jagged breaths; he doesn't understand why he's getting so worked up about this, it's over, everything is all right now...

When he breathes in again it's as though he wants to say something else; it doesn't seem to be happening right now, though. It's been a while since it's been bad like this; just...give him a moment to sort himself out.]

[He'll pull Wesker closer at that, though he's still not stopping with the nuzzling. He can't imagine what it's like for Wesker, but he knows it's overwhelming and the last thing he'd want to do is pull away right now.]

It's okay, take your time. We can stay here for as long as you'd like, don't worry.

...I shouldn't need this, you've been dealing with the worst of it all this time...

[It's quiet but it's agitated; he appreciates the nuzzling, though, and he'll return it after a moment.]

Don't be silly. We both had to deal with very different things, ja? That doesn't mean that only one of us should be worked up about this. You went through a lot and you've only just remembered everything. I think it's natural that you're going to be a bit wound up for awhile.

[It's gentle though, and he doesn't stop with the nuzzling. He really does believe that, after all.]

It didn't feel like I was suffering at all, at least.

[So there's that; his words are again quiet, but it sounds like he's trying to have some control over them.]

It was something I expected, something I was used to.

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