JUST FUCK ME UP

[greatestcool]

Private post for all things Silver and Ryuunosuke. Because I like pain.

idk maybe I'll make this prettier some day, don't get your hopes up though

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[greatestcool]

...Is that a...

[.........ohhhhhh silver has no idea, does he]

Um. That's uh. Not something you should let the others see, probably?

[HE'S TRYING REALLY HARD NOT TO LAUGH OKAY]

[feistytrader]

...Why? What is it?

[...Are you okay over there, Ryuunosuke-]

[greatestcool]

It's a little inappropriate. You'll understand when you're older!

[probably not tbh, but this is hilarious]

[feistytrader]

...I'm supposed to be sixteen, right? Just tell me.

[He's been an adult for like six whole years, what the hell is so appropriate about some buzzing piece of plastic-]

[greatestcool]

What do you mean "supposed to be"?

[Wait hang on, that's throwing him.]

[feistytrader]

...That's not what I remember. But I'm also a lot taller, so I guess it has to be true.

[He's a little reluctant to admit it, but what else is he supposed to say?]

[greatestcool]

Huh... That's really weird. All of my information's right, I think.

[To be honest he didn't look that closely... But he definitely will now.]

That's also pretty creepy. No wonder you've been so worked up.

[He's confused and scared, probably. That would be how a normal person reacts to something like that, right?]

[feistytrader]

[It is creepy. There's no denying that it's creepy as hell. But at the same time...]

That's not why I'm worked up.

[Why is he telling him this? Is it because he's tired? Probably...]

[greatestcool]

Yeah? So what is it then?

[...being trapped in a place where we're supposed to murder each other aside, of course.]

[feistytrader]

...This isn't the first time I've been kidnapped.

[And once that's out there, he doesn't really know what to do with it.]

We didn't have to murder each other back then, but-

[He stops what he's saying and shakes his head.]

It doesn't matter. I survived that, and I can survive this.

[greatestcool]

...Oh.

[He's probably supposed to feel something about that. A normal person would feel something. Sadness, maybe? It takes him a moment to really react to it because he genuinely has no idea what to do.]

I'm sorry to hear that.

[It sounds like he's trying, but it still comes across as stunted. His expression still reads as confused and his voice isn't doing any better. But uh, an attempt was made?

...No seriously, no one tells him intense stuff like this. He's been doing a good job of being aggressively upbeat and no one's said anything important to him. So this is... really strange.]

[feistytrader]

[Silver looks up at Ryuunosuke; he's tired, but he can still tell that there's something kind of off about his reaction. Then again, he did just throw that out at a stranger, so maybe that's to be expected.

He doesn't look upset, though. That's... That's actually kind of nice. It feels more honest.]

What about you?

[Let's just move right along.]

Do you want to survive? Are you waiting to kill someone?

[Who the fuck just asks something like that-]

[greatestcool]

[Well it looks like he's not alone in the socially awkward corner, wow. Ryuunosuke tips his head a bit at the questions.]

Who wouldn't want to survive? As for killing someone... c'mon, do you really think a guy like me is capable of something like that?

[He smiles, eyes closed. He's totally capable of it, but there are a good amount of people here he wouldn't risk killing. Besides, he doesn't want the game to end yet. This could potentially be the most fun he's had in years.

But that question about survival hits him weird for some reason. Does he want to survive? The answer came easily because it's what he's supposed to say, but... Well, it's better not to think about it.]

[feistytrader]

...Of course I do.

[He doesn't trust a single person here to not be willing to kill someone. Ryuunosuke's no exception.]

I don't think you'll kill first, though. You don't look desperate enough.

[They still don't know what happens when someone is killed. If that's the easy way out, no strings attached, he's going to have to figure out how to kill someone too, isn't he?

He doesn't want to think about that.]

[greatestcool]

Fair enough! I'm definitely not. There are a few who might be, though.

[Silver seems a lot calmer now, so maybe he's not going to kill someone immediately. But appearances can be deceiving, he knows that all too well.]

[feistytrader]

...Like me, right?

[He looks more resigned to his fate than anything.]

[greatestcool]

Hm, maybe. You seem pretty calm now though.

[He tips his head a bit and leans back to rest on his hands.]

Obviously I'm not too concerned, if I'm willing to sit out here alone with you.

[feistytrader]

...Thanks. [...] I'd rather not hurt anyone, if I can help it.

[Sure, if he had to do it to survive, then that's that, he's not putting a stranger's life over his. But that doesn't mean that he'd like it.]

[greatestcool]

[His initial thought is "why" but that's definitely not the sort of question you ask someone. Give him a second...]

Yeah. Someone's definitely going to at some point. Not everyone thinks like that.

[...That works, right??]

[feistytrader]

Of course.

[Just because he holds that sentiment doesn't mean that others will. Or that circumstances aren't desperate enough for them to get going. All he has to go back to is finding his family, but who knows with anyone else?]

What do you think will happen when someone kills someone else?

[greatestcool]

I don't know. The rules aren't very clear on that and I'm sure there's a reason why. I'm not sure what will happen, but I guess we'll see at some point.

[He's glancing down and away so his bangs fall in his eyes. He's not bothered by this idea at all, of course. It's exciting and he can't wait until someone goes through with it. But he can't look like he's enjoying himself, so.]

[feistytrader]

[...Is he okay? Did he hit a sore spot or something? He was pretty relaxed before...]

It can't be as easy as killing someone, not getting caught, and walking away. There has to be a catch.

[Silver is tired and has no sense of boundaries, so he's leaning forward to try to get a better look at Ryuunosuke's face without really realizing it.]

[greatestcool]

Yeah, it...

[Um.]

...What are you doing?

[Leeeaaaaning back um. This is. Kind of weird?? No one does this. Everyone lets him get away with the "I'm totally sad and looking away" thing.]

[feistytrader]

[...He's backing the fuck up, is what he's doing.]

Sorry, I- you were fine, and then you were kind of sad. I wanted to see if you were okay.

[He shakes his head again; he's trying to shake off some of the exhaustion for sure. It's not exactly working, but it's something to do with himself.]

[greatestcool]

Oh uh. Yeah? I'm alright.

[Maybe he should have said he wasn't. Um. Did he heck up???? Just gonna roll with it and pretend he didn't!!]

Are you sure you're gonna be okay waiting here all night? There's that rule against sleeping outside of the rooms.